what shy dreams hide in the rafters of my heart

"You should know that adoption issues turn up in the most mundane places, often wearing a cloak of..."

allgreendreams — Wed, 15 May 2013 10:54:21 -0400

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You should know that adoption issues turn up in the most mundane places, often wearing a cloak of fear or frustration. The anger comes from not being able to lay that lurking fear or frustration to rest. For example, a teen-age girl in tears because her complexion won’t clear up is partly afraid that it will never clear up, because she can’t look at anyone “like” her to see that there’s hope. Now, if her birthmother were around, and she once had bad skin, well, that’s a different matter entirely. But her birthmother is not around to serve as an example that everything will turn out all right, or that she’d best take care because it’s only going to become worse.

Similarly, the six-year-old boy who’s unduly tall (or short) has nowhere to look to see whether or not he can expect to “normalize” later in life. And, all you exhortations that things will work out are just speculations. They don’t carry the authority of a living example, a living example which is infuriatingly out of reach.

Taking these relatively trivial (to you) things as examples of places in which adoption anger lurks, what do you do to work it out?

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- http://www.angelfire.com/sc3/devotedadoptee/aa.html (via wyndham)

adoption notes: #adoption #childdevelopment “Every child has a legitimate need to be...

allgreendreams — Tue, 14 May 2013 23:31:19 -0400

adoption notes: #adoption #childdevelopment “Every child has a legitimate need to be...:

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#adoption #childdevelopment “Every child has a legitimate need to be noticed, understood, taken seriously, and respected by his other. In the first weeks and months of life he needs to have the mother at his disposal, must be able to avail himself of her and be mirrored by her. This is beautifully illustrated in one of Donald Winnicott’s images: the mother gazes at the baby in her arms, and the baby gazes at his mother’s face and finds himself therein… provided that the mother is really looking at the unique, small, helpless being and not projecting her own expectations, fears, and plans for the child. In that case, the child would not find himself in his mother’s face, but rather the mother’s own projections. This child would remain without a mirror, and for the rest of his life would be seeking this mirror in vain.” — Alice Miller, The Drama of the Gifted Child: The Search for the True Self, 1997, p. 27.

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allgreendreams — Wed, 01 May 2013 23:34:12 -0400

zodiaccity: Zodiac Gemini facts.

allgreendreams — Thu, 18 Apr 2013 01:34:44 -0400

zodiaccity:

Zodiac Gemini facts.

Zodiac Qualities: Mutable

allgreendreams — Sat, 13 Apr 2013 00:25:09 -0400

accidentallyzodiac:

Mutable-
(Sagittarius, Virgo, Gemini, Pisces)

Adaptable and flexible are the key words here, Mutable signs can change however they wish to suit their situation, even able to take on different personalities. They would rather conform to the circumstances rather than stand their ground and/or fight. These signs are resourceful and often enjoy increasing their intellect. They are sympathetic with a desire to help everyone.

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allgreendreams — Sat, 13 Apr 2013 00:22:16 -0400

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allgreendreams — Sat, 13 Apr 2013 00:22:00 -0400

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allgreendreams — Sat, 13 Apr 2013 00:18:35 -0400

accidentallyzodiac: Gemini all day every day

allgreendreams — Sat, 13 Apr 2013 00:18:10 -0400

accidentallyzodiac:

Gemini all day every day

zodiacsociety: Gemini Facts

allgreendreams — Thu, 21 Feb 2013 01:32:47 -0500

zodiacsociety:

Gemini Facts

zodiacsociety: Gemini and the inner you.

allgreendreams — Thu, 21 Feb 2013 01:31:42 -0500

zodiacsociety:

Gemini and the inner you.

50% of me: "I love dresses and flowers and pretty things."

allgreendreams — Mon, 04 Feb 2013 14:43:35 -0500

50% of me: "I love dresses and flowers and pretty things."
Other 50% of me: "I love tattoos and hardcore music and concerts and skinny jeans."

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allgreendreams — Tue, 22 Jan 2013 23:44:11 -0500

allgreendreams: dont know how to explain it unless i dance it or write it but i feel like the wave...

allgreendreams — Sun, 20 Jan 2013 16:00:33 -0500

allgreendreams:

dont know how to explain it

unless i dance it

or write it

but i feel like the wave of a marked written intent

like a flowing letters

or symbols

and if u tap into these symbols

u can do anything

i can see myself sending certain waves

to certain places

like a slowly inked drawing of little intricate designs and marks

that carries a vibration

of its intent

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allgreendreams — Fri, 18 Jan 2013 08:00:14 -0500

"I swim in the sky I float; my body is full of flowers, flowers with fingers giving me acute, acute..."

allgreendreams — Thu, 17 Jan 2013 13:52:17 -0500

“I swim in the sky
I float; my body is full of flowers, flowers with fingers giving me acute, acute caresses, sparks, jewels, quivers of joy, dizziness, such dizziness. Music inside of one, drunkenness.”

- Anais Nin (via allgreendreams)

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allgreendreams — Thu, 17 Jan 2013 13:52:07 -0500

i found eternity, it was now

allgreendreams — Wed, 16 Jan 2013 12:44:00 -0500

i put on a song

i let gaias energy flow through me, the fire mist shower

i saw it spread

the lyrics:
“Is everything alright?
You feeling moldy?
You feeling lonely?
You’re not the only
Is everything alright?
You feeling stormy?
You feeling phony?
You’re not the only”

And i watched the fire mist spread, the purifying energy the life force.

People questioning, lifting their heads in wonder: “Do you get up up up?
Clouds stop and move above me
Too bad they can’t help me
What is the right way?”

“Do I float up up up?
When I stop and look around me,
Gray’s where that color should be,
What is the right way?”

(My whole body had been tingling to a few minutes now. Right when you send your loving thoughts off they go racing on til your skin dissolves and melts, and eventually you’re just a swirl of shimmers embers almost.)

I saw each human look at each other within my neighborhood, i saw them smile at each other and either laugh or cry because they realized how to finally live. Then i gave it my all and watched it spread further over the state, then america. I saw I was not alone, that others across the planet were also rejoicing because the earth is here. She is re-birthing and we are dancing inside her womb waiting to see the sky.The trees were turning green, the earth was in bloom. Everyone ran out of their houses to the country. To all love dance and sing and stand together to usher in the new age.

When the point of horizon is hiding from you,
What would you want, sky?

I was stomping my feet, but I felt like I was off the ground

"Dreams, dreams. I walk them; I live them. I delude myself with them. It’s a wonder I can spot..."

allgreendreams — Sun, 13 Jan 2013 19:26:13 -0500

““Dreams, dreams. I walk them; I live them. I delude myself with them. It’s a wonder I can spot reality anymore.””

- Adrian Ivashkov, Richelle Mead (via arrow-and-oracle)

moonbrains: gameandwatch: i remember way too many small details about people so i have to act dumb...

allgreendreams — Tue, 08 Jan 2013 10:00:24 -0500

moonbrains:

gameandwatch:

i remember way too many small details about people so i have to act dumb sometimes so i don’t freak them out

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